::: Trixyy :::

Butterflies and Broken Wings. :: Our lives begin to end, the day we become silent about things that matter ::

Saturday, June 17, 2006

The mystery unfolds..

Dear (insert name),

I reckon after all these quiet pretense, I should finally stand out and acknowledge your presence in this humble little blog of mine.
Although all these while, you've but only been a silent reader, I am not oblivious to your activities nonetheless. Afterall, you were partly the reason why I thought I'd make the shift from xanga to blogspot. I say partly because it is not the whole main reason, only a very small fraction of the entire decision. In fact, after some time, I've decided to publicise my blogspot address as well, because I am sure you would have found me here very easily without much help whatsoever.

I am sure when you read this entry recently, and also this entry quite some time ago, you should have already had a clear indication of how much it was all bothering me.
The fact that those search activities decreased drastically after the very first post told me that you, the silent reader patronise my blog more often than I had initially thought. It thereafter led me to split my entries into 3 different subgroups, protected, private and public. Which was very much a hassle for me because I hate travelling between blogs and agonising over what I should post and what I really shouldn't.

I had for a long time known of your visits to my humble blogs, and have very subtly shifted sensitive posts away from this public blog of mine to a more private abode. One in which a search on trixyy would never lead you there. I only did so, because I had long known of your quiet indulgence. I have actually guessed for a long time that you were the one, because I have had a tracker in both my blogs for some time now. And I had thought I dropped enough hints for you to read into in both blogs of mine, but I guess you did not. Although I would like to think that you probably did not contribute to all of the searches done in those various search engines, I can't think of anyone else who would want to do it.

As much as I would like to believe I have an altruistic agenda in standng out and addressing this issue to you.. I honestly don't.
My reasons are personal, which I am not privyy to share.
Let's just say I see alot of myself in you.

However, I would like to beseech you to let it go.
Just like I am trying to do so myself.

Do not doubt for a moment that I am just taking a stab into emptiness. Because I have uncovered information that would directly implicate you. If you would like to speak to me directly and privately, I am just an email away. Because I have nothing to hide, nor anything to be untruthful about, I'd rather you come to me directly than to prowl the virtual space for my net activities.

I appreciate you taking this seriously. Even though these sound a tad bit harsh, I assure you there's no malice nor sharp edges hidden between these lines. I empathise more than I would like to admit.

With kind regards,
trixyy

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