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Butterflies and Broken Wings. :: Our lives begin to end, the day we become silent about things that matter ::

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Like, what if?

When I was bathing yesterday, I had some seriously ridiculous what-if thoughts.
I don't think I ever stop thinking.
Not even at my most private moment when I bathe, nor when I sleep.
Stupid thoughts flood me when I shower, strange dreams innduate me when I rest.

1. What if, everyone lives forever?
This is more like a hope than a what-if thought. The what-if came when I wondered why we are not living eternally to begin with. Books always say of how we will not treasure our today enough if we are all entitled to live forever. And that, we'd grow restless, not treasure the moment or seize the day and take everything for granted. Therefore, having a limited life span is good, because it teaches us how to seize opportunities. Live life and every minute of it to the fullest.
But, those are just presumptions right? Because no one has lived eternally yet. So there's no empirical studies done to prove that us, humans will not treasure each moment, not live life to its fullest, given immortality.
You can't say for sure, unless you've lived it out. Isn't it?
What if, I get to live forever?
I can discover new things every other day, because I have all the time in the world to. I get bored with the present, with my status quo and venture, explore and be adventurous.
What if, we are all boring freaks now because life is short, and we are just too worried of prioritising due to the opportunity costs in each individual task that we want or should undertake. Given limitless time, I can then break out of the comfort zones to experience something new. And I am able to do so, because I have all the time in the world to undo the wrong and try over. I get all the time in the world to mend things that break.
If we get to live eternally, the problem of opportunity cost is minimised. Say I have 10 tasks on hand.. But because life is short there is a prevalent need to prioritise and do the most important things first. However, if is not short. I can choose to do each and every single task at my own pace, ensuring each task is completed and to perfection!

Yes, fat chance I know.

2. What if, we can't use water to bathe anymore?
I read a short essay written by a student somewhere very long ago. Although I barely remember the article or what was written, I remember it till like now because of a very strange idea that she had. (I'm pretty sure its a she)
Her essay was a futuristic one, that suggests that in the future, instead of bathing in water. We instead use air to clean our bodies. Something about a vacuum type instrument that sucks out all the dirt and grime after a whole day at work, living you refreshed! Just like a real shower (with water) would!

This essay, I read it like almost 15 years ago. But it remains vividly in my head because the idea is so hauntingly scary.
Can you imagine the thought of it?

Sometimes when I am taking a shower, this essay pops up in my head, and I think to myself, there's just no way I am giving up water for vacuum air to wind me down each day, or perk me up in the morning.
With that air/vacuum thing, I'd constantly be wondering if I am really clean, and/or if I smell good.
That's just a major pain for me. I'd rather drink less water than to shower without it.

3. What if, beauty is defined differently?
This is mostly inspired by The Zahir - Paulo Ceolho (I seriously can't spell this last name). Although he mentioned a great many interesting concepts that I would like to write about and in the process reflect, I just don't know where to begin.
Anyhow, I it was in my shower that I started to ponder about this.

Society tells us things that we choose to adhere to religiously because we are a part of this society.
For example, it tells us what "beauty" is, or rather, it shows us what beauty is in a person. We have pictures of the celebrities, all dressed up and made up looking "gorgeous" and "beautiful", and the rest of the world reading the magazines, flipping the papers or watching the TV learns about "beauty" through the eyes of society. In the first place, why should we be learning about beauty, when we can find it inside each and every one of us? In today's world, society says that being thin is beautiful, having big eyes, bigger boobs, defined features (almost anything aesthetically pleasing to the eye on the outside) is beautiful. So when we look within ourselves or AT ourselves and we see nothing like what we see in the materials that society provides, we think we are not beautiful. All because we do not have those big boobs and big eyes that society deems as beautiful.

So, what if beauty is defined differently by society one day?
What was predominantly "beautiful" becomes just conventional. Instead, society now sees beauty different, small eyes, non-existent boobs become the rage. OR, black skin, negro hair, thick lips, sagging breasts?
Will we begin to adore this new form of beauty blindly just because society turn towards that? Or are the ideas of beauty in each of us truly individualistic and we would not be easily fooled by the directions of society?
Personally, I think if it trends towards black skin and sagging boobs, we'd all begin to wish we are black and make boobs sag.

4. My toilet.
This is not a what-if thought.
Just a passing ha-ha thought.
The toilet in my new office is big. Thus, there are many cubicles in them, unlike previously where we only had 2 cubicles.
Why does it matter right? Well, it does for me.
Because with many cubicles, I am now empowered to choose which cubicle I want to frequent.I can't do so when there are only 2 cubicles. Because choice is limited. If there's someone in the cubicle that I want, I'd just have to go to the other. But now, with many cubicles, I can choose one to frequent, and that becomes like my favourite cubicle.
You'd be wondering why a need like this arises.

Well, it's simple.
If I frequent a toilet long enough, I'd get familiar with it and soon it'll almost be like my home toilet.
That very small and confined personal space is highly important to me and crucial to my ahem performance in the loo. I need toilets to feel/look the ones at my own home before I can really settle down and feel comfortable.
And well, comfort is everything.

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I should really stop thinking.

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