Leave of absence

You know where to find me.
This time, you'd need to sign in because I'd be activating that lock thingy that they just started.
Sorry about this.

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I have two main reasons for taking off like that and retreating to a (somewhat) more private recess of xanga. Honestly, I do not have issues with people reading my blog, in fact I welcome all friends and foe to read my blog! But the least you could do is to respect it.

Reason number one:
I have honestly grown tired of saying this. But could you stop searching www.trixyy.blogspot.com on MSN/Yahoo/Google/Xanga search. I understand there may be a handful of you out there doing that same search. Or maybe just that one of you doing that same search on the various search engines. But it really annoys me. If you had wanted to read my blog so much and be so intrigued with what I have to say. Then read it. Fine by me.
But don't go searching www.trixyy.blogspot.com. It undermines this blogsite and the address totally.

I can also understand if you are in the office and have no choice whatsoever but to search for it using those search engines (I do it sometimes myself). But at least let me know.

It pisses me off because someone is obviously searching trixyy on the regular search engines and tracking my very personal net space(what an irony). That is to say, you can track if I was surfing porn (not that I am) if you want to on google. The list of results that returns are just flabbergastingly horrifying for me. As Sean would like to point it out to me, that all my varied blogs under the same username are uncovered (not good), and all my postings on tagboards, forums and bla bla bla are also meticulously tracked.

The point is, WHAT IS THE FUCKING POINT?

-hyperventilates and choke-

I kid you not.
After mentioning this 3 times on my blog about searching for trixyy or www.trixyy.blogspot.com or any permutation of that url.. I still can't searches for it.
Is it truly that hard to understand?

You leave me no choice but to think up another username/id and perhaps shift altogether and make this shift a private affair.

Reason number 2:
This second reason is the mother of all reasons. In fact, it is the one very sore reason that is giving me a pounding headache right now.

The guy (he is relegated to being called the guy for the moment, because I cannot think of anything else more degrading to call him) has gone for reservist, to search the nation this week (not that I am particularly mad about him going to serve the country really).
But prior to leaving for that short national service stint, he had to piss me off totally.
Well, actually technically he didn't piss me off. A friend of his did. I use the term friend, because I am tactful, but he would like me to think of it more like a colleague of his.
Well, whatever.

There are a couple of reasons why this female colleague of his pissed me off.

1. She calls him "daddy". Right here's your cue to puke, just not on me.
Who in this age calls a guy friend "daddy". Can you please picture me calling you guys out there "daddy"?? I honestly can't. And I will puke down my front. Because the only other person I call "daddy" is my dad. That sweet old man who'd give in to anything I say, as long as I go "dadddiieee, can you please send me to work tomorrow morning??" I love my daddy, and there is no one else I could think of who deserves that same amount of respect in that namesake.

The thing is, if she called any other guy on the street, who is obviously not her dad, "daddy"I am fine. I'd just roll my eyes and try to force the puke down my throat and regurgitate later when I find it appropriate.
It pisses me off, that someone could think it appropriate to call another person's guy "daddy". I mean what is up with you? Have you no self respect?
If you want to be respected, conduct yourself in the right manner to be respected.
Don't expect to gain respect when you do not respect your own dad. Don't expect to gain respect, when you cannot respect the fact that your "daddy" friend, might just have a girlfriend who is fucking annoyed with this "daddy" crap.

2. When he say it once, don't ask for him to say it twice.
If the guy had already made it clear enough to you (or so he says) that you should stop certain activities that are bordering being a nuisance with being a major nuisance. Then what the hell is stopping you from being the biggest nuisance human kind has seen?
I just don't get it how some people just don't get it.

Consideration is obviously something that is not practiced in society today. Nobody starts to wonder if their own action is going to spark a chain reaction anymore. Tomorrow, you'd see people shitting on the streets just because they like, and they do not consider how the others around may feel about you shitting on the streets. To your personal self, it may just be nothing. A natural way to let go and relieve, to others it's just downright disgusting and not to mention, a major nuisance.

What an analogy. But well, you get my point.

Is it me, being such a possessive prude, or has the world evolving into such an unrecognised placed? Quite some time ago, perhaps about a year and a half ago, the guy had that crazy decency to forward me an excerpt of the conversation he had with this girl friend of his, who's been somewhat into him for quite some time. In that excerpt, I saw for myself first hand, just low one would go, for what they think as "being true to themselves". Maybe, love makes one lose all rationality. But losing rationality and stooping low is different, very different.
Say, if the guy I have the hots for is attached (and has turned me down before), the least one could do was to wish him well and seek for greener pastures.

What was sympathy became disgust.

I know how this sounds all so petty and small to the great majority. And I am sure there are people who think I am nuts (the guy definitely does, with a chop no less). But that's only because you do not come from where I am, so you don't see what I see. Just like I may not see from where those girls come from. I am just stating my point, and I am open to comment or opinion.

But whatever it is, this leads me to take a leave of absence from my own blog because I am just downright sick of blogging about the downright mundane stuff, because I am clearly bothered by the inconsideration of others. Therefore, I've decided not to blog for the general public, and instead to blog for the xanga users (whom I can safely track).

Let me state the very classic phrase which I've learnt quite some time ago.
If you have an issue with me, email me.
I am sure you can search on google for that email address.