Hello boy.

It's funny.
I cannot help but think about it.
I bumped into a certain someone today on the streets. No, he wasn't someone really significant in my life. Just that he was like a passing cloud. Someone that came and went by. (come to think of it, I have alot of guy friends I know that are came-by friends).

I think I blogged about him before, but it was in the blog that I closed down. (how unfortunate).

As much as we were never something, I do remember snippets of him. And how we actually eventually lost contact.
He was one of the first male friend, whom I thought I could develop a platonic friendship with. So I guess that's why I remember him till now.

The platonic friendship part came to me naturally. Not because I was attached then (my then boyfriend was away on some study trip thing for almost half a year, I think). It came naturally because he was a year younger than me. (Yes, this is intentionally in bold). So it's like natural for me to think of him as just a friend. Furthermore, he had his crush, and I helped him out, went out with him to get v-day gifts, had group dates, just so that girl could agree to go out with him, spent hours chatting just to help him get his girl. I don't know what transpired (my memory is failing me). But I do remember receiving a special v-day gift from him (it's a precious moment figurine, one which I still keep and it is still on my display shelf). It was my second precious moment figurine lor (at that time, I really liked precious moment), he gave me that together with a strange letter. The letter was written on a yellow piece of paper and the gift was wrapped in yellow paper. Hur hur, at that time I was fanatic about yellow. Just like how I am fanatic about pink quite some time ago. (I am not now la).

I seriously do not remember what happened thereafter, but I guess it somehow progress to a stage whereby, I didn't feel like it was platonic anymore. That, or he was a tad bit too clingy, and I started ignoring his calls and didn't want to go out with him. He was pissed off, and we just stopped contact altogether.

He's a really nice boy. *boy because he one year younger than me.

I don't understand really, how platonic friendship is something that eludes me. (at least for me)
I don't mean platonic friendship like those hi-bye friends, but stuff like F-R-I-E-N-D-S... you know, where you can hang out, be crazy with each other and still be friends friends.
I know of people who can maintain such friendship. But I for one can't. Maybe because I like to complicate things and make plenty of assumptions.
Like say, if guy friend liked me, and I don't like guy friend. I tend to assume that it would be better to distance ourselves because I don't want to give guy friend the wrong impression nor do I want to complicate things. Like guy friend becomes not happy that you are hanging out with another guy, or perhaps eventually developing feelings for another guy.
I hate that.

I like it only when guy friend just remains as GUY FRIEND. A friend like Joey (F.R.I.E.N.D.S) would definitely do me good.
Maybe because I come from an all-girls school. So it is difficult for me to befriend with just about any Tom-Dick-Harry, because there's always that get-to-know each other period of time, which is really awkward. Especially so when you just wanna stay as friends. Because guys are stupid, they always like to get the wrong idea. And I am not that type of girls who could just go around talking to just about every Tom-Dick-Harry, start calling them and asking them out.
WORSE, I hate that "god sis/god bro" thing.
Excuse me, you living in the 60s or what? That is like so in the past already.
All that crap about "you are my god sis, I will look after you" just makes me squirmish and have goosebumps all over.
Get over that!
I swear, if some boy ask me to be his "god sis" now, I would castrate him. Why is it people are still so immature? Go out and get a life! Go listen to the opposition's rally or something. (woops). Anyhow, tomorrow's elections. Which makes me wonder... so after tomorrow, I will therefore be allowed to discuss politics on my blog?

I've been feeling oh-so-fucked-up lately.
One of the reasons being this ban on political issues being discussed on blogs. Every single day, I just come up with something that I really really want to blog about but just can't.
Can you imagine how that feels?
Very anti-climax ok.

Pardon me.
I am about to conk off.
Believe it or not, I am getting used to waking up at 6am for work.
Argh.
Then again, I sleep at 10pm every single day. So I guess that figures.

Because of work, my blog has turned very un-interesting, and very much like a daily report.
For that I apologise. And thus, decide to go on a break and concentrate on work/eat/sleep. I don't think anybody needs to read my boring shit. Plus I am not hanging out with anyone special lately, except my kick-ass 19" flat screen monitor and tons of reports.
All that shit about "cost reporting", "gross margin", "inventory costs", "month to date sales", "warehouse inventory" is driving me c-r-a-z-y ok?

So instead of maintaining a boring and un-interesting blog, I might as well not blog altogether. I don't want to sound increasingly stupid. So if you are in for some boring shit, go read elsewhere (except my links, cos they are kick-assy interesting).

I just want to sleep.
And I will be back when I have something interesting.

I am seeing stars. (unliterally)

** By the way, I mention about that boy (*because he is one year younger than me) friend of mine, because he snubbed me.
Just as I was about to say hi, or wave. He very quickly turned away.
Now now, do you need to do that?
I mean no harm! I won't cook and eat you leh. Not like you maligned me, or I maligned you in any way? (or perhaps I honestly don't remember). Neither did your ex-gf accuse me of ditching you and then harping about it.
There was none of that malice.
So why the snub, boy?

Bah. I guess it'll never be answered.
But YES, I know you remember me.

**** I think Ms Cia is not going to be all too happy with me. But.. I MEAN NO HARM HOR.
Plus, you love me deep deep remember?
(saw the link bo?)