Highly Irritable

Honestly, I do not know what has gotten into me, but I am highly irritable.
So I am sitting here now wondering if I had always been like that, and I only recently realised it, or is this like a gradual transformation.

- I get very irritated with bitches who talk too loudly especially in small confined spaces.
Don't they get on your nerves too? When they yak loudly, as if the world belongs to them? Makes me wanna slit their throat and watch them gaggle and drown in their own blood. (I am really kidding)

- I hate it when people dont' watch where they are walking, especially with a wet umbrella. This stupid short girl had to stab her umbrella into my thigh whilst she was walking towards me, with her head turned away. I mean, if she was just yakking with her head turned away, and her shoulder bumped into me, I perhaps would not be that pissed. BUT she had a stupid umbrella sticking out just itching to stab someone. The funniest part hard to be when she was the one who yelled "ouch" when her umbrella made contact with my thigh.
WHAT? The umbrella is an extension of your arm? And it feels more than my thigh?

I think
I ponder
I wonder

I still cannot decide if this is a recent development.

Anyhow, I nearly hyperventilated in the train on my way to work yesterday.
I realise I could actually surf the internet on my useless motorola v3

Ya. So maybe I am s-l-o-w-
So what?

My dear driving instructor finally hinted to me, that I am his 2nd worst student of his.

Driving instructor (commenting on his previous student): Ya! He is very lousy, so many lessons already still very lousy, almost like you. (in chinese : gen ni yi yang)
Me: hur. whilst trying to get my car to turn out onto the road.
Driving instructor: But at least you are better now. You cannot imagine how bad he is. You are 100% better than him.
Me: (like thanks) hur.

So I am 100% better than his worse student, that doesn't really put me in a more favourable light does it? I am beginning to think it is a huge mistake trying to get my license. Not only will I endanger my life, and the lives of my passengers. I will also be harmful to the other road-users isn't it? Especially so when I don't give a hoot about those banglas people on bicycles.
Sigh. This is a very daunting challenge.

The lies I told yesterday, is enough to last me for the rest of the year.
It is sad, come to think of it. That I have to lie to put myself in favourable light.
Oh wells.
Let's just hope telling lies get me somewhere this time.
(Oh please let me get somewhere)