Devastated

I wish there's a better word I can use to describe how I feel right now.
But right at this moment, devstated is just about the most appropriate word I can think of.
Nothing beats that kind of devastation somehow.

I snipped my hair today after a spur-of-the-moment decision.
I just have this weird quirk of snipping my tresses when I am feeling oh-so-fucking-down. It is somewhat therupatic for me really. I like walking out of the hairdressers feeling lighter, and the load taken off my head makes me feel more lightheaded. (ya ya I know sounds so bimbotic)
Anyhow, it's cool. Makes me feel lighthearted and a tad bit happier, albeit shortlived.
As always, when reality kicks in, everything just crashes apart again.

The Oprah Winfrey show made me cry.
And it wasn't even one of those oh-so-inspirational episodes where they get folks who are either obscenely fat or seemingly thin, and they talk about how their live changed after they did this and that. It wasn't all that, though I also always cry during those types.
Instead, Oprah Winfrey had Sarah Jessica Parker, Orlando Bloom and Matthew Fox (Jack Shepard from the series Lost) come in and show us their favourite haunts in New York, Kentucky and Hawaii respectively.

And it was Orlando Bloom that made me cry.
He actually visited 2 survivors of the New Orleans Katrina Hurricane in this town in Kentucky. Apparently, these 2 sisters evacuated just hours before the hurricane swept New Orleans and destroyed everything they owned. So Orlando Bloom surprised them at their place and the 2 sisters were so shocked and touched they were moved to tears.
Because they escaped with only their backpacks, all they had were the clothes packed in the bag. He actually gave them (or rather I think it was The Oprah Winfrey Show) $5000 worth of Guess vouchers!!! CAN YOU BEAT THAT?

Because one of the sisters was such a LOTR fan, and she lost the entire LOTR collection, Mr Orlando Bloom had people get those LOTR collector's item back for her, gave her a mega hug and invited them to the premeire of Elizabethtown, and they actually received red carpet treatment and all.

Simply fab.

It's not because the person doing that was Orlando Bloom.
I cried not because he's drop dead gorgeous and stared ever so intensely at the cameras (he did!)
But it's because he who is someone of such power did something so simple to the lives of a commoner. Giving back to the community what they had given to him, making him such a huge star.
That is humility, or rather, that is what I perceive to be as humility.

Many of us just don't have it.