One of those days

You ever had one of those days?
From the moment you wake, everything just seems wrong?
You wake up feeling groggy and hate the fact that you actually have to get up at 7am in the morning.The clothes you picked out to wear just seems a little off, the work bores you quite abit, you walk around carrying on your little routines and you hardly find the energy anymore to smile or even make small conversations.

I am having one of those days for 3 days now.

I ain't motivated to smile or listen politely anymore. Instead I am restless and impatient, preferring to retreat quietly into the dark recess of my mind., seeking solace in solitude instead. I think mood swings are inevitable. It's only human to have your moods. But mood-swinging at my level is highly abnormal. I like to think that I have no control over those moods, or that I have no idea what's causing them. But very frankly, I think I know.

I am drained from the energy to put on the mask.
Another day perhaps.

I've gotta make it clear though.
Putting on a facade for the benefit of others (and yourself) is not similar to hypocrisy.
Although I put on a mask on most days and make an humongous effort to smile and be polite, attentive and listen to everything thrown at me, I am not a hypocrite.
That is to say, when I dislike someone? You'd know it. I won't pretend to be oh-so-nice to you and create small talks (because I truly just cannot), or be oh-so-helpful and dish out advice, tips and bla bla bla
Or rather, I will not try to pretend that I am neutral or worse, like you. So I really don't know how some fellas can. Is there something wrong with me or what?
- should not say more -

If only I could download Maple Story here in my office. I probably would be at level 70 by now. (with the amount of free time I actually have)

I just realised I bought Jay Chou's latest DVD on Sunday.
It's Wednesday today.. and I haven't yet watched it. Oh boy.. if only I can still find that DVD amongst my mess.
Mummy, please come home like soon.

She's going to kill me when she sees the mess that I have created.
BUT you really can't blame me la.. I am having one of those days..