Backdoor.

I think one should live life backwards.
Do you get this feeling of regret towards certain things, and wish you had the benefit of prior knowledge or experience?
I get that sometimes.
Perhaps because I just was not prepraed enough or did my research enough. But don't you think it would all be perfect if we started life the other way around instead?
Like from the back forwards?

- I deleted a chunk of scenarios that grow more absurd as I write -

Just wishful thinking.
Not possible ever.
But sometimes you just can't help but wish

I am literally bored to tears.
Tomorrow, I am going to watch vcd. I don't fucking care if I have to read chinese subtitles, anything to take away the boredom.
It's honestly driving me shit-crazy

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Sometimes I get so frustrated with life and the people around.
I wish I can stop breathing just to get away.

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I don't believe fans are still harping about the Brokeback Mountain loss at the Oscars. What is with the harping? I didn't catch Crash, but if the committee says they are good enough to receive an Oscar, then so be it la. Why harp?
Fans go on and on about how they can't believe Crash won for Best Picture even till now. Excuse me, I didn't catch Crash. But really, Brokeback Mountain isn't that fantastic really. I mean, it made me squirm in my seat lor. NOT because I couldn't stomach the sex scenes (or backdoor scenes if you like it that way). But because it was so darn draggy. A major yawner if you ask me.

I mean, it was nice in the beginning to watch how Lee Ang build the characters, how sweet and subtle their love lives were. But really, do you need to go into the entire picture? Some scenes were just.. unnecessary.

Although I would welcome more scenes of Jake and Heath's butt.
I am really not a pervert.
Really.

NOR am I interested in exploring anal XXX (or should it be XXXX sex) as purported suggested by Killer D.

And STOP telling me how gross you BOYS think the movie is.
To me, a sex scene is just a sex scene, regardless WHO it involves (though the line is drawn with animals. And note, RAPE is not inclusive). So it involves 2 guys? But if they love each other, decides to have sex? Then who the fuck are you to say that is gross.
I am honestly sick to the core with hearing the remarks BOYS make about a gay flick (especially when here's a gay flick with sex scenes). Brokeback Mountain is so yesterday ok? Let's all talk about Scott Speedman.

Say one day, someone tells you..
YOU have sex with ANOTHER of a DIFFERENT sex is GROSS.
How'd that feel to you?

For the n-th time.
It's MAKING LOVE ok?

You would only think its gross because it's always just SEX to you.
Grow up, you stupid boys.

(Please don't point out that this is my second entry of the day)