Job Search Workshop?

The only useful thread of information that I obtained from the workshop I attended yesterday was when the instructor mentioned
It's all in the eyes.

She went further to explain:
On the surface, everyone may seem really happy. Laughing and joking.
Yet, beneath that, when you really look at the person's eyes. You know, that person is depressed deep down inside.
You can tell, from the eyes.

Don't ask me why she'd lead to that. Especially when it is a Job Search Workshop.
I have no idea really.

But it caught me off-guard, when she said that.

What do you see in my eyes?

Sometimes, we are guilty of assuming one's happy by the way he/she portrays themselves.
Be it, the jokes, the laughter, the hearty conversations.
But are they truly happy?
Does the happiness penetrate deep enough for that someone to really radiate pure happiness?

People don't really know me.
The ones who really do, are the ones that are living at home with me.
Because home, is the place where I hide from the world and retreat into.
Home, is where everything becomes real for me.

It seems inevitable.
Everytime I leave my house, I put on a mask.
Shielding myself from the rest of the world, so nobody really knows what is going on inside.
Sometimes, I get tired from it, plus it becomes frustrating.
You wear it so well, it hides so much of your true feelings that nobody really knows who you are, or what is going on inside.
It frustrates you, the dilemma of keeping your mask on in protection of yourself, and taking it off to let others in to your world.

How little control we have on our own lives.
Age is catching up on me.
Yet, I feel as vulnerable as I did say a decade ago.
I have very little control of my life. So how do you really expect me to feel like my age?

It tears me apart most, when I lose control of my emotions.
When I cannot feel the way I should or want myself to feel.
Then again, with control, would it be better?

Cruelty of the real world makes it all harder to stomach.
Many times, I wish I can be as naive as I once was.
Oblivious to what is going on around.
Yet, somehow that is never possible.
I am always forcefully fed with information that I did not ask.
The world, is filled with hypocrites.
On the surface, everything seems well.
People get along, they laugh, discuss about their lives, chat about many things under the sun.
Behind that, you are being gossiped about.
I know this, because I've witnessed it.

When I am forcefully fed with such information.
You do not really expect me to just take it in and let it pass through my system.
Because, what it really does is.
It had me thinking.
Would the dynamics be changed and twirled such that one day.. I'd be caught in similar situation?

The reality of the world sucks.
Maybe if we do away with the hypocrites on Earth..
Only animals will live.
Perhaps that is what killed the dinosaurs.
Hypocrisy.