So clever

Smart, Clever, Intelligent.

I don't think I am any of the above.
No, I am not trying too hard to be humble here.
I just plainly think I am not any of the above. Though I must add, I don't think I am stupid either.
If I am really smart, clever or intelligent.. I wouldn't be typing this crap here now, in the midst of skiving at work. Instead, I will be strapped with mindboggling problems, yelling at God-knows-who, rushing reports and what not.
Hmm.. then again, I take that back. I really have no idea what smart, clever and intelligent people do. But I have this feeling it ain't work either.

Anyhow sometimes, I think I am too intuitive for my own good.
That is different from being smart, clever or intelligent.
Being intuitive, is linking different parts of a memory together, chaining them up and forming conclusions about the entire picture.
Say for example, Person A mentioned something to you the other day about Incident B. Seemingly it was nothing. Ok, in actual fact it is nothing. But few days later, you chance upon something, do your own little investigation and piece things together.. and realise there is more to Incident B then you initially thought.
That is hardly a good analogy.. But it'll suffice.

So isn't intuition just so amazing?
For once, I fool others (and myself) that I am smart.
When in actual, I am just.. intuitive.
Yes, it is tough to distinguish between the 2. But really, if I was smart, I would have accomplished more and achieved far greater.

The year is drawing to its close.
I am glad.
Maybe 2006 will be more exciting, interesting, promising, satisfying...
Come what may.
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I love you..