I think

Haven't been in the mood to blog for quite some time.
Actually.. I am still not in the mood to blog. But anyhow, I shall just attempt. Since it has been quite some time.

Been bugged with a persistent headache. Wonder if its due to the lack of fluids.
But I hate drinking water.
Drinking water is like.. spiders to Ron Weasley and dementors to Harry Potter.
I just totally loathe it.

I am suffering from Harry Potter withdrawal.
I am just yearning too much for the last book.
I cannot believe its the last book lor.
What else is there to look forward to after I read the last?
-sulks-

I have been doing alot of wondering lately.
Too much wondering is bad for health.. maybe that is what have been causing my headaches.
Either that or its the tumor-that-I-insist-I-have-since-16... Just can't decide man..

Been procrastinating alot of things lately.
And splurging on some really really pricey stuff (like that Taiwan trip).
When instead, I should be getting my necessities.

Like:
1. getting my specs done (its been wayyyy too long)
2. visit the dentist
3. save (for fuck) hahaha
4. go for a medical checkup (so I would stop thinking I have some tumor/cancer/heart defect/lung diease)

Sometimes.
The little thing that he does makes me feel special.
But why can't that little feeling be enduring enough?

Everyday forward now, is just like everyday backward.
Its all the same.
Everything's the same.
Days pass without much stuff happening.
Is this what life is suppose to be?

A new temp can in on Monday. And today is her last day.
I hate it when temps come and go.
She is like our 3rd temp.
I hate training someone, teaching her what to do and what not to do... and the next moment.. she just tells me she is going off.
I understand that you are just temping.
I totally understand, because I have been through that..
The need-to-earn-money days..
But heyy.... I train you hor.
Its tiring to repeat and repeat the same story everytime.
BAH.

But the previous girl was really sweet.
She bought us farewell gifts... and even wrote me a card, with a key chain.
I was so touched lor.
She is the first one to do this for me.
Make me feel so old..
Bahahaha

Anyhow, I was just talking to the temp today..
She is 25 and already married. In fact, she has been married for 4 years.. and no, it was not a shotgun marriage.
She got married because they felt it was right.. and it was on her birthday.

Somehow, that triggered off some memories hidden at the back of my head.
I remembered a time, when someone once said that to me.
Just a flicker of pain.
Nothing much.

But it reminded me so much about what I wanted to happen.
And what I hope would happen.
That they build a marriage step by step, from scratch.

I think there are 2 general types of marriage.

One:
You start from the beginning, step by step.
That is, you ROM.. save money together, plan for what you want in the future and save and work towards that.
Couple of years later, you do the necessary customary, buy a flat and start a family.

Two:
You do it all at the same time.
Feel that the time is right to do it all.
Buy a flat, ROM, customary marriage and bla bla bla
Of course, for this to happen, you have to be either very rich or rich enough.

I prefer one.
I feel you tend to derive more satisfaction out of it.
Its like, when you look back when you are 40, you feel a tingly warmth. Like the love and marriage was one which you both work hard for. And there is a huge sense of owndership towards that marriage.
No?
maybe I am just plainly deluded.
Or very tired.

WHY WHY WHY.
Why must we work 5 days and rest 2 days.
Why can't be all work 2 days and rest 5 days
Life would be soooooooooooooooooooooo much happier can.