Meaningless

Sometimes, I think every single thing in life is meaningless.

How people always say.
Life is the longest thing that you will be living.
And we should make the most out of it.
Say you do.
Say you made the most out of your life.
You are satisfied with what you did and have done
So fucking what.

Everybody die.
The more you do, does not equate your life expectancy.
Sometimes, the ones who led the most meaningful life dies first.
What then?
When you die, do you bring your sense of satisfaction with you? Do you smile when you die?
Do you find peace when you die? Just because you have led a meaningful life.
How do you of all people judge what is meaningless and what is meaningful.
Say, Person A feels that having one ultra good meal in his/her life equates a meaningful one. Will Person A then smile in his/her sleep?
My point is, everybody has different perspective on what is meaningful and what is not.
Who has the right to judge who lived a meaningful one and who didn't?
Nobody, truly nobody has that right.

Even if you did (according to you) lived a meaningful one.
Then what?
Do you bring it with you after you die?

The reason why I don't believe in religions.. is because they are different, but with similar premise. They always talk about where we will head after death. Why must God be our salvation? Why must He judge where we will go after we die? How can one single being represent an earthful of people?
People believe in their God, because they give them a sense of comfort. Somewhere to go to after they die.
Face it. Everyone fears death.
It is horrible.
To seriously think that you will just cease to exist/breathe/think.
What I fear most is the inability to think forever after I die.
Everyone fears death to an extent.
And so, they turn to religion.
Their God.
They want to believe that after they die. After they breathe that last. They will carry on elsewhere.
Face it.
We won't.
And I don't care if you tell me that if I don't believe, God will not accept me in his kingdom after I die.
Because if you think about it.
If God does not accept me all because I don't believe in him, then God is crap.
Really.

Say, Person B is the all good hearted person. Did all the right things in life. But one sad little detail. He doesn't believe in God.
What then?
Does he go to Hell, all because he doesn't believe?

I spent 10 years in a Catholic school.
I got nothing out of it.
Except to feel discriminated all because I didn't believe.
I was told I would go to Hell because I am not Catholic. Perhaps my information is warped.
But truly, don't blame me, when they segregated students.
When they constantly asked, "who's catholic", and they got to go for some special class (can't remember that name).

I like to believe that everyone on Earth is judged equally.
That everyone is viewed the same.
Whether I believe in your God or not.
Religion does good.
I know. How people learn to forgive, learn to be kind, learn to give.
But do you need religion to enforce morals in society?
Does it make me less human if I am not a believer?
Religion perhaps is the source of evil.
Just like how we are battling terrorists now.
They are too much into their religion, their God calls for this and that.

Think for a moment.
A world without religion.
Don't you feel the discrimination would lessen?
I am not saying it would be eliminated.
Because there are other traits that separates us all.
But religion adds fuel to it doesn't it?
They unite everyone who believes in that God.

When fundamentally, all that religion is (to me at least), is just a source of comfort.
For those who fear death.
Don't tell me now you don't fear death.
It is because you fear death, that is why you believe in life after death.
You section your fear and thoughts.
Thinking now..
I don't fear death, because God will be there to receive me. Because I will be with Him.
You are just plain deluded.

I am sorry, if this offends the majority of you.
But I am not one to mince my words.
I believe everyone is entitled to their own views.
And this is just mine.
I have at a period of time contemplated turning to God. Believing in Him, hopefully then I would be a better person.
But I stopped short of it.
Because I know, I am clear headed enough to know that: The only reason why I would take up a religion (very inappropriate use of words) is because I have this massive fear of life after death.
I wake up crying thinking what it would be like to die. What it would be like for my parents when they die. And where my grandfather is now.
I don't want to believe in God. All because he is going to soothe my fears.
I want to believe in God, because there really is a God.

BUt sadly, till now, I remain a free-thinker.
Because He just hasn't happened.